The Gardenia Project -Women’s Storytelling
Ep 20 Jessica, I AM Enough

Ep 20 Jessica, I AM Enough

June 27, 2019

Jessica is an amazingly loving happy person who also has Trichotillomania, which is a hair pulling disorder. She has battled it since she was 10 years old. Her anxiety and a belief that she would never be 'enough' was pervasive growing up and as she got older it led her to drinking to self medicate. Then there was a fateful night when her whole life was forever changed. She was drugged at a bar and kidnapped. She survived this horrible experience, but it left it's mark deeply on someone who already dealt with anxiety daily. Trying to come out from under the PTSD that she now had was an even bigger battle.

Jessica tells us a remarkable story about how she came to finally began to take her confidence and her life back through EMDR work, what the voices in your head tell you versus the truth that you have to keep telling yourself, and how every day she still works hard to believe the real truths about herself.

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Ep 19 Elizabeth, Rewriting Your Story (Returning for a mini Episode!)

Ep 19 Elizabeth, Rewriting Your Story (Returning for a mini Episode!)

May 22, 2019

In Feb of 2017 Elizabeth told her story on this podcast. She was episode number 2. If you haven't had the chance to listen to it then just pause this and go check it out, it is so powerful!  Also you keep listening to this you will hear a spoiler for that have been warned! You can read the summary of that episode and see more portraits of Elizabeth over on The Gardenia Project page of my website here:

I asked Elizabeth to do a follow up podcast and she said yes, because my story feels so different now then when I told it 2 years ago. 

What she didn't quite understand then was that fear was still crippling her life and holding her back

So today we will hear what happens when we re-write our story. Elizabeth tells us about how she learned that she has the choice of choosing love over fear.  

Our stories can be healing if we allow ourselves to see that transformation can happen when we choose to rewrite our own stories and learn from them instead of continuing to let them hold us back. Not an easy task, but something that can change our life for the better!

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Ep 18 Leigh, Happiness is a “Holy Donut”

Ep 18 Leigh, Happiness is a “Holy Donut”

May 1, 2019

In this episode Leigh, creator and owner of The Holy Donut in Portland, Maine tells us so many things about life in this podcast. Like what it’s like to put your heart and soul into your business idea. What happens when you put your head down and work your butt off for a dream? What it’s like when that dream unexpectedly takes off a light speed. How the universe can hear you. What does it mean to listen to your soul when it comes to eating? What real parental support (even when you are a grown up) looks like. How hard it is to raise a kid as a single mom. And what’s it is like to lose someone who had given you so much love and support. 


This episode was brought to you by Jennifer Elizabeth Moore, Modern Medicine Lady. If you are a sensitive being in this overwhelming world she can help! Head over to her website to check out her free offering. You will be glad you did!



Ep 11.2 Kim, Love Carries You Through

Ep 11.2 Kim, Love Carries You Through

March 13, 2019

This is a re-release, a second telling of this story. When I first released this episode I didn’t have a producer and it ended up being quite long which I think kept some people from listening to it. So I wanted to have my collaborator, Stephanie Cohn listen and produce this episode for me. She did a wonderful job and I love the results that we created together.

This story from a dear friend of mine may be hard for any of you that have lost a child. As Kim shares the story of the loss of her baby Garrick, I want to make sure that you have that warning before listening since it is such a delicate subject matter for those of you that have experienced this loss. However, her story is one full of love and laughter. She talks about the things she learned from her son, Garrick. How he taught her to see all the beauty in life and be grateful for it every day. How the love from friends and family really does carry you through. 

Kim still grieves every year and yet manages to be a light for so many. She chooses to see the love all around her despite deep loss. She talks about moving on and the fears that came when she had another child. This in depth look at life after the death of a child is a tribute to how fragile life is and how strong we can be. 

A huge thank you to Jennifer Elizabeth Moore of Modern Medicine Lady for being our sponsor for this episode. Check out her amazing website full of help for empathic women!

If you want to check out the portraits of Kim you can see them here:

Ep 17 Jeannie | What we Celebrate

Ep 17 Jeannie | What we Celebrate

February 13, 2019

Jeannie had a regular life, just like all of us, until one day it changed in an instant. Her entire life hung in the balance and no one was sure what would happen. What Jeannie talks about throughout the interview are the small steps she took to put on foot in front of the other. The little things along the way that ended up being huge milestones in her recovery. Small things that were big celebrations!

What she teaches us is to celebrate the small stuff in our lives. The things that seem little, but make a big difference. The daily minutiae that just blends in and we tend not even to notice. That stuff. It IS worth celebrating. It’s worth slowing down and seeing. Because that is where we derive joy.

Jeannie has plenty of joy and positivity. Enough to go around for everyone. She was so fun to interview. We laughed a lot about the things that happened to her in the story. She has a great sense of humor. And I loved that her story serves as an example of the strength of the human spirit as well as a touchstone for celebration. As you will hear, she is just the right person for that. Re-birthday and all!!


A huge thank you to Jennifer Elizabeth Moore of Modern Medicine Lady for sponsoring this episode of The Gardenia Project. She can help you to recover and grow your tools for being an empathic woman in this world. She offers and teaches EFT and much more, head over to her website to learn more!


Want to see portraits of Jeannie? Head over to my website to check them out as well as the other women that have shared their stories!


Ep 16 Sarah, No Is a Nice Word

Ep 16 Sarah, No Is a Nice Word

January 22, 2019

“BE NICE”. That is overwhelmingly the message that girls get their whole lives. You know the old saying “Sugar and spice and everything nice. THAT is what girls are made of”. UGH! I can see now how dreadful that is as a message, but I still feel that pressure every single day. Really, I do. We are just conditioned from the time we are little to not make waves. To be kind and for many in my generation, also obedient. So yeah, it’s a lot to come out from under.

Sarah tells the story of what happened to her that set into motion a string of events that completely changed her life. All because she just couldn’t find the way to say, No. It is a wild ride and a valuable lesson for anyone who listens on how far things can go without out that one word.

Boundaries are super important and learning how to put them in place is a skill we all need to have. Come listen to the story of a journey that went to far and how she came back. How Sarah learned this lesson in a big way.

This episode was brought to you by the sponsorship of the wonderful fairy god mother, Jennifer Elizabeth Moore, Modern Medicine Lady. Click the link below to sign up for her webinar on how to manage being an empath in this world! 

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Here is a link to the ACES study that Sarah refers to in her story. I tool the time to read this and was blown away. The story about the doctor working in an obesity clinic and how he ended up doing this study is totally fascinating. Totally worth your time to read!

Want to see the portraits of Sarah? Here they are:

Ep 15, Sarah, I Believe You

Ep 15, Sarah, I Believe You

December 5, 2018

The theme of this podcast is, Belief. Right now in the United States we are a part of the #MeToo movement and just finished the Kavanaugh hearings. It is devastating for many many women to know that if they spoke up they would not be believed. While so many women have come forward to share their stories of sexual abuse and stand together there are still so many more that stay quiet. That live in fear lest they should be judged. Sarah was brave enough to speak up. I thank her for those of us that stay silent.

Sarah chose to share her story, not all the gory details, but the impact. The way that it changed who she is. Both sides, the ways that she battles still against the belief that she is unlovable and the ways that it has made her appreciate how amazingly beautiful the world can be.

To see the rest of the portraits of Sarah go on over to my blog post here: 



Ep. 14 Sarah, Embracing All Sides of Yourself

Ep. 14 Sarah, Embracing All Sides of Yourself

October 30, 2018

Sarah was born in Calcutta, India and adopted at 6 weeks old by a family in Maine. That should have been the biggest change for her life, but it wasn't, by far. She faced alopecia as a child and then vitiligo too. Sarah was super shy growing up and then found a way to deal with it. All of these things taught Sarah a lot. She shares her journey from India to America, sickness to health, and all sides of her personality with us along the way. Her story reminded me of that we all can learn from each other. Always. 

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Ep 13 Britt, A Flicker of Light

Ep 13 Britt, A Flicker of Light

September 12, 2018

Britt's story is truly unlike any I have told here before (or ever heard for that matter). It is one of an early teen life full of sadness that ends up with her being kidnapped. And then it spirals out from there. I won't say more, but this is an episode you won't want to miss. Because like all the rest of the woman who have shared their stories Britt's life now is a wonderful happy success story that she is proud of. Often though when we look back we are embarrassed or ashamed of our story. More often those emotions come from things that were outside our control, but we still blame ourselves. And that is one reason why I share these stories. So we know that we aren’t alone. That we all feel the same and that we can escape our shame. 

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Ep 12 Suzanne, Learning to Be Kind to Yourself

Ep 12 Suzanne, Learning to Be Kind to Yourself

June 7, 2018

Suzanne tells the story of how early on she learned what she should look like. Teen magazine is not the place to get that advice, but when she was young and impressionable that is what she saw the world saying the standard should be. She then went on to deal with a lifetime of food addiction. Suzanne bravely shares a truth that most of her friends don't know the extent of. She realizes that she is tired of hiding the struggles that she has daily and we all benefit from the universal lesson to be learned in being more kind to ourselves.